The Stories We Tell Ourselves: Light, Transformation + Music Vid!
It's been an intense week (or two) - a lot of things bubbled to the surface for me that were uncomfortable and frightening, and I didn't see it at first, but I recognize it now as transformation.
We are all master storytellers. We have this internal monologue that runs all day - where we tell ourselves about who we are, what we want, what we believe, etc. We learn to think of this as our "identity." But I don't think of these things as "identity"; they are stories that we can choose to identify with - or not.
I've been practicing mindfulness for almost a decade now - daily, and in every moment, so - at this point - it's not often that a story I tell myself gets a grip on me. Mostly, I see them, say hi to them, and let them pass along the highway.
But, sometimes, a story comes up that is painful because it doesn't resonate with the current state of your heart/mind. And you get in the car and go for a ride. It's extremely unpleasant, but what's happening is that something is coming into the light where you can see it. Because maybe you're ready to heal it now. You're ready to transform into the next version of you.
I guess that's what this video is about. I wrote the song/poetry portion almost a month ago, but then set it down - didn't feel drawn to work on it. But, it has resonated with me tonight. And, it feels like a more honest expression than trying to explain in anymore detail what I mean - about light, about transformation. Sometimes words just aren't enough.