That (Un)Fulfilled Thing (Just Let it Be), Or Learning to Speak in Rhythm
It's been some time since I've updated this blog, so I thought I'd try to write something, anything.
The truth is, I haven't been writing much lately, and lately, I've been wondering why. A friend of mine (and fellow poet) once told me that if she didn't experience some kind of emotional turmoil that she would probably stop writing altogether, and I feel like I can relate. In the past, I've written poetry to help me process difficult feelings, but for some time now, I've just felt...okay. It's not that my life is perfect, and I still experience a whole range of emotions, but they don't take over everything the way they did in the past; they don't force me to find a creative outlet. So. What to do? Can you still find inspiration when you're not constantly on a emotional roller coaster ride? I hope so. Maybe this is just a transition period.
Here's some stuff I've been doing instead of writing...
I've been taking a lot of pleasure in learning to play the piano. Sometimes it's so refreshing to work in a medium other than words. So often I feel like words miss the "point" entirely and coming at it in a different way is invigorating. I feel similarly about drawing.
I've been trying to take walks, where I follow the sounds that interest me and record them, and each time I do it, I find something else lovely and worth my attention. There's so much beauty in ordinary things.
I'm noticing more and more the ways that we try to control people and things in the world. The pain it causes when you fail to control again and again. (You will always fail.)
I'd like to let things be themselves. Even the "ugly" things. To stop filtering everything through my assumptions and really see/experience what's in front of me. To really listen when a friend tells me about her day. To really live my life. Really.
Maybe there's something about this stuff that can be poems, too. A new kind of curiosity I'm cultivating.
P.S. Stay tuned! My interview will Denise Newman will publish soon, soon, soon-ly!